Вчера у меня вышел такой унылый разговор с А...может, это все одновременное просматривания Bloodflowers...у РС такое лицо, словно, он сейчас заплачет...и он смотрит наверх, чтобы сдержать слезы в блестящих глазах...волшебно и убийственно. Так или иначе, у меня зародились грустные мысли по поводу А, такие, что и правда хоть плач. Я больше его не слышую не понимаю...



I don’t have a notion

What is happening to us

Where we are going

To burn to ashes or turn to dust

I only see I’m losing touch

With those I held so dear

Those that I thought I understood

Believed that they could understand me

But now it’s fading , I am helpless

Like sand that’s slipping thru my hands

Can’t keep this treasure no longer

And out of treasure grew just shit

We grow apart…not close like we were

Or was it just my desperate wish

OR was it a lie that I believed in

And made fake reality out of it

Now I must face it, I don’t need you

And there’s no reason why you should need me

Our paths diverge, I’m on the crossroads

But mist has wrapped our lonesome hearts

I can’t see further, but for now

I’m disillusioned, lost and weary

Confused like a little child

Confused, but knowing what I need

But you are no longer option

A useless way to kill my time

Our conversations get me nowhere

Just bring me to the borderline

Where it comes to my red sore eyes

A vision of us disappearing

Different directions, different views

I knew it would be this way, didn’t i

I knew someday we’ll be this drained

Of feelings towards us…they’re dying

And nothing in the world can save them

Nothing can make you feel like I do

Or love and speak and think like me

You’re living in reality

While I’ve hid in my own haven

And don’t wanna give you any keys

But even watching now your changing

And how afar I stand from you

I figure all has lost its meaning

And nothing stays the way it were

And people can’t change at a time

Now matter if they were true friends

How did it happen that we parted

And how occurred that we have altered

Is it me who has stayed behind?

Or is it you who’s gone too far

Is it me remaining childish

Or you – matured, growing old

Our interests do no longer coincide

We dream of different signs and things

I’m losing you, you’re losing me

But isn’t it just how it meant to be?

Then why does it ache so much

To confess there’s a chasm between us

Why does it hurt me like hell

To face friendship slowing to a halt

No tears, but soul filled with bitterness

No regrets, but uselessness of all

The remaining faith is slaughtered in me

By your words that make no sense to me

And your deeds – foul and stupid to me

I wish I could freeze you

In the state I liked you in

But you grow older and older

And splinters of my faith all fade away…